slow burning fire...

Black to White

2009-03-10T01:07:00.000-07:00

feel so lonely today,a close friend visited after a month we met.This is my closest friend and my friend has to go today.Now i miss myt friend so much.Why am i so emotional,i never understand.

Read below for spwcial symbols :--->

Anyways,these days i am busy with a big deal..this is kind of deal that can change your life,from being poor to rich.Ofcourse it's has some shady characters involved.I am not one of them.I just make right people meet right ones.

It's a deal where "1KB%" have to CON to "W%".

and i get 1 % of that.

There are somethings that are not under my control but some are.And i know this may not happen but if it does...then... hahahaha

i have the contacts to CON any AM to any AM.And This is waht makes me important.

I hope i succeed is sealing this deal and make my family and friends happy.

% =Money.

1K =thouzand cr.

CON=converted

W=White

B=black

Am=Amount

me the mary jane

2009-01-10T07:57:00.000-08:00

Having lost a lot in last 2 years have made me stronger and wise.Hoping this year i would be good to myself and my dreams.It's me out in the world now for the first time in my life i would be living on my own.I want to do so much..but all that needs trucks loads of money.It will take me 10-15 years to make that much at least.Want to make people who believe in me proud.Hope i do oneday.keeping my fingers crossed as i head into this wicked world of selfish people.

in this shithole overlooking the river
that sears silently
dark shadows
vanishing around the corner
i can't see what they have got
an straw sinking down
as the rain falls
everything as it was
as it should not have been
holding all of my calls

sound of the fun
wanting to be found
i don't close my ears
it's just the pain

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2008-12-21T07:49:00.000-08:00

i dunno y i am..y me writing this..y me made this..y me want to have a space to say something..
to jot down my life..the things i can't say that i want to say,i will write them here..as a child i was too lonely..bullied and bashed around..the story is still the same..some people ..people like me are never meant to fight..just being beaten..beating like a hammer gives to a nail.Not fucked(its good) but being raped...and raped again...i want to write about so many things...and i will.I want this to be my diary.I dunno want u to give me advice...i have had plenty and it fucked me up even more.I want to just write the shit in my mind.Don't lash at me...it won't affect me at all...i have been through a lot..and i just want to be myself.I don't want to redeem myself..it can't be done..just want to write my shit down.
So plz dont' act like a toilet paper in the comments section..

Will write sooon...